Don't you know that happiness is a warm gun?

05 March 2009 @ 11:06 pm

I can't stay consistent with this, can I? Oh well. School is fine. A girl named Jiwon came a few weeks ago and she's cool. We're friends:3. On Saturday she, a few group members and me might be going out. I'm not feeling my greatest health wise but I'm sure I'll be fine. And a bit of advice to all of you: don't get food poisoning. I had it a while ago. NOT FUN.

I just discovered 4chan.......I don't think I'm innocent anymore Oo. Seriously, its not for the faint hearted (like myself). Course I went on to their infamous thread(which I shall not speak of, its the rule, ya know?). Now I have the urge to rick roll someone. I think I might piss off a few friends tomorrow. Haha:)

My English teacher is a cunt, just incase you were wondering. Honestly, you're a fucking English teacher. You're not good enough to even have a short story published so why the fuck do you feel you have the right to be a bitch? I bet she's a troll on 4chan and goes on every night to get her fill.

My math teacher on the other hand is amazing:D. My group was talking to him today and the subject of his birthday came up. He said that his birthday is in October. Of course, we were curious as to why he didn't tell us. In response he said "Oh, I'm just shy", or at least something very similar x333333333333. To make up for missing his birthday we're making him a cake for pi day(3/14 for you math haters out there).

Besides school, I might be volunteering at the hospital soon. I tutor kids on Wednesdays now, but I wanted to do more. Tomorrow I call them to work things out. I hope that works out:). I think more people should volunteer. Not in the preachy way either; it just feels good. If you volunteer, you'll know what I mean.

Anyway, I have to go to bed, I'm exhausted:/. Night night!
Emmax3

Tags: 4chan, english, hospital, life, math, rick, rick roll, roll, school, teacher, teenager, tutor, volunteer

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15 February 2009 @ 06:38 pm

Wow its been a while

I've meant to write in here for the longest time but never got the chance. I've been doing better (for the most part) since my last entry. I'm on vacation this week so I'll have a lot of me time to straighten things out. At the beginning of the week I had food poisoning >.< I highly recommend avoiding that if at all possible.

I'm thinking of teaching myself how to sew. I love clothes, but just can't afford to go shopping all of the time. I'm just not sure how to start...If anyone reading this knows, please tell me! Thinking of clothes, does anyone out there follow the gyaru trend from Japan? I've noticed that in almost all cases their trends are in and out before they ever hit the states. I try to follow the trends, but like I said before I have a very limited budget so I can't really get a lot. If I ever do learn to make my own clothes then I'll definitely look to them for inspiration.

Also, I want to try out a new hairstyle. I just am not sure of what to get. If I get it cut any time soon, I'll put a pic up:). I would love to get bangs like every fashionable person has recently, but they look HORRIBLE on me. I look like those kids that have the mothers that never brush their hair and then let them out in public looking gross. Its sad, really.

That's it for now anyways, I'll post more soon,
Emmax3

Tags: budget, clothes, fashion, food poisoning, hair, life, money, sick, style

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29 January 2009 @ 09:01 pm

However long the night, the dawn will break;;

Things have been getting quite tough lately....My cat has a heart condition that could result in him being put down (hopefully if this is the case it will be a while before it is necessary) and my mothers work hours have been cut (meaning that she'll still get the same hourly wage, but yearly we'll have less money). I've been ridiculously stressed out and I want to just get away from the world for a while. I'm not going to do anything like hurt myself, but I feel pretty down again. I just can't wait until Spring when it gets warm again and bad things seem more bearable. I hate thinking about the possibility of my cat dying as he has been such an important part of my life, but I feel bad feeling sorry about that as I know a girl who just lost her mother. And I try not thinking about the money situation....I have no idea how we'll get by. Money fucks the world up, in my honest opinion. Besides all of this, tonight there is a dance at my old school. I would have loved to go, but as it is a Thursday and I have school tomorrow that wouldn't work out so well. Shaggy probably wouldn't have been there anyways though, I'm pretty sure he's still sick. That must suck. If I were him I'd be bloody pissed. It still would have been nice to see old friends, but I'll have other chances for that. At the end of the year they have a dance for sophomores and freshman called the Frolic, and I'll probably go to that. Hopefully I'll end up going to the GMHS prom with a certain someone too....:D.
That's it for now, I have to get ready for bed.
Love;
Emmax3

Tags: cat, dance, economy, kitty, life, love, money, sad, school, world

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Current Music: Jamie All Over-Mayday Parade

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20 January 2009 @ 12:27 am

Sleep is sooooo overrated.....

I can't sleep so I figured I'd write on here. Its strange to think that in a few hours, Barack Obama will officially become president. I can't imagine how hard it must be for him to sleep if I can't just 'cause I suck at life. I wish him and his family the best and hope he will be able to do some good for the country. I know some of you don't like him, but I sure do. I'm sure he won't be perfect, but I really think the country needed the change. I hope that my teachers will let us watch his speech, as I'm considering skipping class to watch it in the library(they'll be playing it all day I believe.

Besides politics, I've been feeling a little down lately. I'm not sure why, but its getting quite old. I go through spells like this from time to time, so I know I'll be just fine. It was worse last year when I was really depressed. I just felt like it would never stop. Ever since the end of ninth grade though, I rarely go through these phases. Anyone out there who's depressed and seeing this should know that it all gets better. No matter how bad everything sounds, it will all pass if you can just stay strong and hold on. This is why I want to be a psychologist:I want to help people who are like I was this time last year. I want to help them get through these phases so that they go away completely. I'm not in therapy and haven't been before, but I'm sure if I went last year I could have saved a lot of time I lost to the hell that is depression.

Anyways, enough of my sob story. May all of you stay warm this winter. Its so cold over here in Mass.!

Love,
Emmax3

Tags: barack, barack obama, cold, depression, insomnia, life, obama, politics, president, school, sleep, winter

Current Location: Mi casa

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Current Music: Don't Cry Out-Shiny Toy Guns

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19 January 2009 @ 12:02 pm

New York City at the beginning of December

What can I say about old New York? Its the place I've always wanted to live in, even though the first time I saw it was last year. I'm not sure why I'm so drawn to the city, but there's something that keeps pulling me in. I'm not sure where I'll wind up for college, but I know for sure that they day I graduate I'll be moving into an apartment in the trendiest neighborhood in the city. Of course, if I decide to have a family I'll want to raise them away from nightlife and noise, so I'll move on up to the Upper West Side (I don't want my children growing up to be complete snobs so the east side just wouldn't do, no matter how lovely it is). I'd visit art galleries and museums all the time and I'd always go listen to cutting-edge indie bands in small clubs.
( A few pics )
The pics are from my most recent trip in December. I know picture taking is uber touristy, but I just couldn't help myself.
Love,
Emmax3

Tags: city, life, manhattan, new york, new york city, nyc, pics, pictures, travel

Current Location: Still home

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18 January 2009 @ 11:07 pm

An Introduction to Shaggy

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been wicked busy. I decided to put this up because this is a person I will reference a lot. He does have a name, but I chose this as his nickname because of his shaggy hair and this is what all of my friends know him as. What can be said about him? Well, he's the one I told you about before, the one I'm in love with. Yep, this is the one I was talking about. It was love at first sight really. He might not know I exist, but he is my world. I know that's not good, because you should never make someone your everything when you're just an option to them, but I'm human and honestly, I can't help it. I'm usually really strong, and don't get attatched easily, but mannnnn is this a totally different case. He doesn't judge people and is really nice:). He might not get amazing grades, but I can tell he is actually very smart, just not all that driven. I know that he smokes and does pot, and I would never do anything like that, but I just don't care. Not even in the slightest. You might say I'm just a love-struck teen, but I've felt like this since December of '07, and that doesn't sound like a little high school crush to me. The problem with all of this is that I recently changed to a different high school (I used to be a school choice kid, now I'm going to the HS in my area) and he doesn't log onto his Facebook that much so I have no way to talk to him:(. I wish I knew what to do, because this eats away at me everyday, and there is a single day where I don't think about him. Whenever I listen to my ipod, I come across multiple songs that make me think about him. I wish I knew what to do. I really just have no idea.

Love,
Emmax3

Tags: heart, life, love, school

Current Location: Home sweet home

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Current Music: What Hurts the Most-Cascada

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04 January 2009 @ 02:01 pm

Grrr

I have to do a cooking project for school soon:/. It would probably be a whole lot better if I could cook. Whatever, if I get food poisoning I'll just consider suing my teacher. Thinking of school projects this is my last day of vacation.

I had two weeks off, and now I get to start waking up at 5:30 Mon-Fri every week again. Also, I'll have to face seeing my ex again. We don't talk know, and I don't feel anything for him, but its still a little weird. I felt it could have gone so much farther than it actually did. Angela just went on a date with her fairly new boyfriend and it made me realize just how much I miss date nights. They're really amazing aren't they?? If you have a man or lady in your life don't take them for granted.

At least tomorrow when I go to school again, I'll be wearing my new Free People shirt I got for Christmas:). I guess liking free people stuff kinda makes me a hipster, right? IDK, I'm not into labels. I really can't think of any that I really fit into. I guess I'm rather hard to peg. But, I like being like that. I'm not going to change myself to fit in with people. I'm fine with my current social situation. Though this makes me wonder:why do people change themselves just to feel cool? I mean, I've come across so many posers, and I'm not sure why they try so hard. They never really seem happy. Anyways, after four short years you're out of high school for good and probably won't see most of those people ever again, so why bother?

I'd love to go on, but I have to get ready:(. Damn school projects.
Love,
Emmax3

Tags: life, school

Current Location: Home, grandparents soon

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Current Music: Across the Universe-Beatles

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03 January 2009 @ 10:56 pm

Getting to know moi;;

I've come so far from where I was last year. I feel like I'm finding new things out about myself everyday, and I'm a whole lot happier. I used to go to school in a small town where I couldn't be myself, and now I switched schools and feel amazing.

I mean, I know I'm not perfect, at all, but I still feel like I've come so far. Yes, I may still be a bit too deep for many people's tastes, too liberal for others, too shy in the eye's of many, and too passionate and intense about the things I care about for almost anybody to handle.

Moving on from growing up and maturing, I'm in love. Yep, its true. Tell all your friends, message Perez Hilton, spread gossip far and wide. I don't care. I'll never tell you who, anyways(unless of course, I feel REALLY comfortable with you). Only a handful of people know, and they're the ones I can trust with anything. He might not know, but he's amazing to me. I know its bad to fall so hard and fast, but I just can't help it. If I had my say in any of this, I would just give it up. (Damn you dumb heart)

Okkkk, so my friends. I love them to death of course! There's Angela, we've been friends since elementary school and are besties of course:). She shares my love of Zara, what more can I ask for? Then there's Taylor. She's offbeat and completely wild. She can always make me smile with her craziness. Then, there's Zacharoula. I met her back at the beginning of the school year, and we've been friends ever since. I have plenty more but if you know me then you should know who I hang out with.

Welllll, that's it for now. I'm sure you'll find out more as I keep writing. If you ever want to ask me something,or just start up a random conversation, go for it! I promise to write back.
Love,
Emmax3

Tags: blah, friends, growing up, life, love, maturing, me, new, school, teenager

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